Wishing on a shooting star!! .... still wishing and waiting..........!

Will the outcome be good, or will it haunt you for the rest of your life?

"It's not that you're not beautiful, you're just not Beautiful to me.. She said, how beautiful do I have to be??... "
 

I was happy, Thought I met my Superman.. Had set ideas based on him and was super HAPPY.. For once I thought this feeling would last.. but.. sadly.. Last night I learned that sadness would engulf my life in an instance with one text and I would feel the deepest of sorrow.. He said it wasn't my fault, that I'm amazing and beautiful... BUT HOW BEAUTIFUL DO I HAVE TO BE FOR HIM TO STAY!!!... :'( if I'm sooo beautiful and amazing then why did he leave??

This is something I dis-like... beautiful, gorgeous.. pretty. It never truly describe someone.. only the outside view of someone. it has no standard to measure from... so why in the heck do people judge people like that. I'm soooo tired of trying to live up to a standard that isn't even me and that I am supposed to feel bad because I'm not "Beautiful"!?! I want to wake up tomorrow and it be reversed.. And not have to wonder if I'm beautiful and just walk out the door not looking in the mirror a hundred times to make sure I'm decent enough to not be made fun of.... but it wont.. I will wake up and put an oversized hoodie on (just to hide in), fight with my controlling yet lazy wavy hair that will only wave on half of my head, and then pile foundation on my face because the world looks down a pond non clear skin and wavy hair with the invention of the straightener and makeup. . . . . . . ya.. How I wish some days I was the essence of beauty. .. . . . and then i wake up.

Some days I just want Superman to save me.. I had a whole description for this set.. but now I feel its not necessary, it was when I made it in January but not now. Now I just want to be saved by Superman and for once be the leading lady in my own life...... not the dorky friend. . . . "sigh". . . . . . . . . .! Doubt anyone sees/reads this anyways.. but if you do thanks for reading.

sometimes it just feels like your so close to something or someone that you can see it and feel it.. but you don't have it .. and your still so far from having it you kinda want to give up.

life is full of chances.. and choices. We never know what will happen and when we will find our prince.

I wish a guy would storm a castle, fight a dragon, and be my prince charming...